:: Musings ::

Today was my 30th day vegan! I MADE IT A MONTH!! YEAH! WHAT NOW, MAHFAHKAHS? (Sorry to those of you who despise cursing, but I didn't really spell it out and I deserve a little something for doing this anyways lol ;D)  Yeah so I've been vegan for 1 month with little to no craving what-so-ever! I also cut out the soda. I'm on day 5 without it and I'm doing fine!

Also: Day 15 of the 100 Day Reality Challenge today. I have been doing good with it I think but today I got majorly distracted, by good things though.

What distracted me was this: I decided that I needed to do more to help myself move forward in life. I want to do more than just school. I want so badly to start coach-training so that I can be a life coach... But the question was... how? Well step 1 was to call and find out how much coach training would cost each month... The woman from iCoach Academy told me the price was going up starting May 1st, but that, for now, the down payment was $500 and that the monthly payment (for 11 months after) is $393. Basically, if I can come up with $500 dollars for the down payment, I can pay the monthly payment no problem! Step 2 was to figure out how to get the $500. I asked Grammy if there was anyway she could loan me it, she said she'd love to but she just doesn't have it. So then, I ask if she can pay my bills for 4 months and Papa pay my cell phone while I re-pay Grammy Beccy... She said she could, but I'd have to talk to Papa about the cell. He also said he could. So step 3 was to call Grammy Beccy! I called her around 3:30 and asked her. She said she'd like to talk about it, about the program, and about if I'll actually complete it first. This is very good sign! I think I'm going to be able to do this!! Basically I just have to show that I really want to do this and that I can balance school and coach-training. No problem. Can do. :D

So I've made it over 25 days! Almost 4 weeks or 1 month as a vegan! I am super proud. Especially because I made it through the offers for strawberry shortcake yesterday!

Speaking of yesterday, I only ate 848 calories yesterday... I got triggered to restrict again, but today I decided to eat adequately because it's not worth being unhealthy.

Also, the yoga challenge didn't work out because I got really dizzy on day one and decided to stop.

Overall, though, I'm doing well. I feel much better today and I also am cutting out soda starting today...

I'm on day 19 of my veganism and am super psyched for the 3-week mark on Wednesday!

I finally got some schoolwork done on Saturday and Sunday and plan to do everything on time this week.

Also, I started the 100 Day Reality Challenge over again and am on Day 4.

There's a 30 Day Yoga Challenge starting on April 1st too and I'm super psyched about it.

Not much else going on, but Randy is coming over for the weekend on Friday and coming to my mom's for Easter. It'll be our first family holiday thing together, it should prove interesting.

So as of the end of today, I have been vegan for a full 2 weeks. That's pretty major for a girl who couldn't make it 4 days before! I am so super proud of myself for this and am working on making it healthy as opposed to eating vegan junk foods like (vegan-friendly) candy and potato products (chips, fries, et cetera)...

Anyways I'm pretty sure I've mentioned the 100 Day Reality Challenge before, but in case you don't know what it is I'll explain a bit: the Challenge is basically that one puts the Law of Attraction, goal-setting, and positive thinking into action for 100 days. There's a website, CCOR, that you can join if you want moral support from a community of positive people too. I joined (my name there is Torii-Lee), and am on day 3 of "Season 1" of my Challenge (meaning the first time I'm doing the 100 days... I never did finish before!). Day 1 was AMAZING. I woke up feeling like shit, but made myself get out of bed and into the shower and before I knew it, I felt GREAT! Even after Randy said he'd have to push our plans to Tuesday, I was feeling wonderful... In my mind: as long as he's mine, who cares! But then yesterday and today I've been down. It's so hard to work on my goals while I feel this way! But I must push forward, I made a commitment to myself! I just worry that I should have prepared a little more before I started...

Last week, as you likely know, I got my wisdom teeth out. My jaw STILL hurts. This is most likely due to my jaw being misaligned and therefore unable to stay open too long without getting hurt and also my teeth grinding at night. I've been "popping" my jaw (You know how some people pop their necks? Well I pop my jaw to make it feel better...) nonstop and still no relief except for when the pain meds kick in and I'm running low on those...

Anyways... I think what I'll do (going back to the subject of the Challenge) is give myself some time to prepare for my Challenge and start again. This means I'll have to tell my friends at CCOR that I am doing this. I know that their positive people and they wont "yell" at me for starting over, but I just feel like I'll be reprimanded for some reason... Eh I dunno... I need a plan. So I'm going to make one.

Later!

Today will be my sixth day as a vegan, but OW my mouth hurts. Why does my moth hurt, you ask? Because all four of my impacted wisdom teeth were taken out yesterday morning and the Percocet only makes the pain BEARABLE. >>;

Anyways, yeah... Last Wednesday I decided I was sick of the crap and would be cutting it all out. I had been eating meat on and off and dairy & eggs where always in my diet save my maximum 4 straight days vegan accomplished before (well multiple attempts means I probably collected more than that...). So Thursday morning I got some vegan staples at the grocery store and I've been vegan since! Now, since my mouth is on the mend as of yesterday, my diet is mostly tomato soup, apple sauce, and Popsicles. Of course, I'm still drinking soda, but am cutting back and I also have the occasional peanut butter or fluffanutter sandwich.

My current plan for lowering my caffeine intake to zero is 3 a day until Monday the 22nd of March, then 2 a day until Monday the 29th of March, then 1 until I run out. After 3 to 7 days of withdrawal, I'll be off soda for good and will allow myself caffeine only in tea and vegan chocolate products.

My family is Catholic in case you didn't know, so we were invited to my step-grandparents for Easter. I plan on making some vegan peanut butter cookies and a vegan version of Fettuccine Alfredo, called Fettuccine Alessandro from PETA's Vegan College Cookbook.

Today (when people are actually functioning), I am hoping to see Master Randy. He has yet to give a me a time to get Him though, so I have to accept that plans may fall through. He has presents for me from Christmas/Yule that just came in the mail so, aside from wanting to cuddle and be with my perfect lover, I want my GIFTS (lol)!

Also, people playing Pokemon Heart Gold or Pokemon Soul Silver should send me their friend codes. I haven't got mine yet, but I'll post it ASAP.

I can get it, but I have schoolwork to do before I play any more. I was so  anxious about surgery on Sunday that I couldn't do my HUGE MOFO of an assignment. I can get it in today by 3 my time for full credit because of my accommodations though. Plus I have a Discussion Question due today. And I haven't done ANY reading... BUT I CAN DO IT!

Also today, at 4pm, I have my first DBT Class/Group. DBT stands for Dialectic Behavioral Therapy and is a combination of CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy), or changing your thought-processes and Mindfulness Skills or "being in the now". Wish me luck! :)

Randy promised he wouldn't move on. He was so stressed about all the shit he has to straighten out he didn't even realize what he was saying before. So basically we're together, but we aren't calling it that, because Randy thinks it's unfair to me. Whatever, as long as You are my Sir, I do not care what You call it, Hun.

After disappearing for another 10 days, Randy dumped me. He said he'll just keep hurting me until he fixes the shit going on with him, but THIS hurts me, so what the fuck? He also said he can't promise he wont move on cuz he doesn't know what will happen. It's clear to me that he doesn't love me, or at least if he does he's entirely retarded about how to keep someone you love. I can't deal with his shit. Sooooo, I'm single -- WHO WANTS MEH!? lol